Weekend

So this weekend. Saw Matt unexpectedly Friday.

Saw him on Saturday and then I had to run off to babysit one of the kids I work with.

She was pretty good... was just quiet and then fell asleep pretty quickly. Little angel <3

Well anyways I got there at around 7:30 and the parents were supposed to get there at 12:30-1 am ish.

But they didn't. Matt came to pick me up at 12:40 and waiting until 2 am before I even entered his car. Ugh poor guy. He totally made my day yesterday though... sweetheart and a half.

He's soooo thoughtful. He even bought me one of my fave movies. "Moulin Rouge" and kind of watched it with me. Even though it's not even close to his kind of movie. Oh well, he's ah -mazing :)

I still haven't blogged about my friend's boyfriend breaking up with her. She was kind of upset at first but she got over it and now her ex's friend are asking her to hang out because "she's cooler than him". Hm, suspicious? These are the guys who were calling her nasty things behind her back. Plus their loyalties clearly lie to their friend right? Anyways, she wants me to go with her so she's safe. Gah.

Bus rides

An elderly man was sitting near the front of the bus, carrying a cloth bag which had some sort of liquid in it.

It was dripping though the cloth and onto the floor.

A young lady walks into the bus, struggling with a stroller, and sits right across from the man.

He smiles and she returns the gesture.

He suddenly points at the stroller and tells her to move it farther from him...

And that's when I saw him puke into the bag.

He was carrying his own vomit around in the bag.

Really puts things into prespective.

Looking forward

So I have been so BUSY lately!

Tons and tons of homework from teachers who trully dislike me.

For example, my math teacher doesn't like be because I indirectly called him boring in grade nine. Plus I'm really bad at math so I guess he is justified.

But whateves, get over it!

Either way, so much work to try to get the perfect average for my univeristy of choice... U of T!!

Plus I was chosen to be part of the schools Prom Committee. We already picked a theme but I can't reveal it until... well... until we start selling tickets haha..

So today is September 18... do you know what that means? praaaaaaaahhbably not.

so I'll just tell you. It means that I only have 2 months until my 17th birthday.

Hell to the yeah! :)

October 2nd is our schools first dance of the year. Since Matt isn't in high school, that means he can't get into the dance. Which by extension, means I'm not going. So he said he's going to take me out to dinner or something the night of the dance... "you won't even remember there is a dance"....October 3rd I hope to go watch "The invention of lying" with a whole bunch of friends and then October 4th....

(brace yourself)


...


....

you ready?


I am going to drag Matt to church :)

*insert hymns here*

Me in my underwear

This is Megan Fox. Matt simply adores her. But maybe it's just because he loves Transformers ahaha.

This is Freida Pinto. Another woman who he also worships.

In my opinion, I am a beast in comparison. Well not to Megan Fox, she looks like plastic, but I think Freida Pinto is really gorgeous.

I'm pretty sure if I took pictures in MY underwear, I would look just as good :)

Future Career?

(kidding, don't get too happy)

(I bet all of you clicked this because of the post's title... sickos lol)

UPDATE: I don't look just as good. I look better

Sing to me

I wish I could do better by you,
Cos that's what you deserve.
You sacrifice so much of your life,
In order for this to work.

While I'm off chasing my own dreams,
Sailing around the world,
Please know that I'm yours to keep,
My beautiful girl.

And when you cry a piece of my heart dies,
Knowing that I may have been the cause,
If you were to leave, fulfill someone elses dreams,
I think I might totally be lost.

But you don't ask for no diamond rings,
No delicate string of pearls,
That's why I wrote this song to sing,
My beautiful girl

Depressing comic

Fight

"Ugh that got me thinking. Is it too much to ask for them to try a little harder? To at least try and say the right things? Or do the right thing? We shouldn't always have to tell them. Like the little things hurt more than anything. I'd go out of my way to like never do the smallest thing to hurt him. And it's probably not the same way for him.....I need reassurance. Fuck my life. I want to go live in a fairy tale."

- Debs Rex <3

I totally agree with this statement. Guys need to try a lot harder... but then again, so do girls right? Matt and I argue all the time. I screw up a lot and hurt him often. But the thing is, I hate having to pay for his ex-girlfriend's mistakes. I know most of what I do that bothers him now wouldn't have bothered him if she had been able to appreciate what an amazing guy he is. I make him feel horrible. Make him feel like he's a bad boyfriend even though I think he's an excellent one. Gah. I don't know why he puts up with me, really.

I know he could date someone prettier. Someone smarter. Someone from his school. Someone who can actually make him happy. Someone who doesn't fight with him over everything....

And I mean everything.

(I'm so insecure.)

I asked him why we always fight... he replied that it's because we care for one another. Too bad that in the process of caring for one another, we hurt each other so much..

fuuuuuuuckkk. I couldn't have said it better myself Deb, "I need reassurance. Fuck my life. I want to go live in a fairy tale."

But if I did, the prince would end up with the princess, right? Seriously, right now, if someone was writing our story, I doubt I would be the princess. More like the sinister step-sister.

Gah, and another thing. Half the time I wish that his ex-girlfriend had seen how much he's worth. Had treated him right, never hurt him. I would rather him never have been hurt even if it means he would still be dating her...

Everytime I think about this, I think about that song by Avril Lavigne... Sk8er Boi...I don't know why, but it always comes to mind...

I want to go live in a fairy taleeeeeeee.