I refuse to give in to my blues, that's not how it's gonna be.

I absolutely adore this song.

But on a different note, I had a midterm today that went super smoothly. So easy, hopefully my marks reflect how good I feel about it!

Have an essay to do as well but I've been focusing on making myself feel better

It's my second day as a single lady and it's raining, not a good combination. If all goes according to plan I won't be single for much longer, but I can't put the healing process on hold for anything. Why would anyone want to extend the pain of brokenheartedness?

Ta ta for now

Some pictures of Simba :D

No Plan

I don't have much of a plan, really.

I told Sara about how I want to get Chris back. It sounded pathetic coming from my mouth. She pointed out that she has never seen me so emotional about something. I am determined.

The only worry that I have is that I might be too late, maybe he will attach his affections to another before he realizes how much I love him.

I'm thinking... maybe I should do something about it. Should I try to get him back? I've read a lot of articles today on how to get your ex back. I want to put them to the test I think. I really love this guy and, as stupid as this sounds, I'm willing to fight for my relationship. Blah

ouch

Why does this hurt so fucking much. I would think since we dated for only six months this would be easier to get over. Blah. blah blah blah. i just wish he would run up to my door knock on it and make up.

The Break up (x2)

Chris and I broke up last night. He told me that I was right but he wasn't willing to change what he was doing so we should break up. I spent all day crying and looking at his facebook. I must have clicked his name a million times in the past 12 hours since we broke up. Even now I can't stop thinking about him.

The pain isn't as bad as when Matt and I broke up two years ago. I think I must have guarded my heart better this time. Too bad, because Matt will never be half the man Chris is.

STOP!

Focus on the negatives and why you shouldn't be together, not on all his sweet smart qualities. OkayUhm, he always stinks of sweat when he comes over. He belittles me, he doesn't pick up the phone when I call, he doesn't listen or take an interest in what I do. He is all talk and no action. He just rolls over after sex. He never shows how he feels, he would rather be rational than show how mad or happy or anything he is. He texts other girls day and night. He smokes. He hid things from me.

Fuck.

None of those things really make me feel better.He has a great smile and a golden heart. But I don't have a place in it.I must have pushed him away? Isn't it typical for the on who was broken up with to blame themselves? I couldn't possibly just let him walk all over me like the other one.I deleted his number, Facebook, our texts, any sweet messages, all the plans I had for Christmas. I don't to be reading how he will "love me until the last breath leaves his breast" and then remember how full of crap that was.Here we go, heartbreak number two.

300th post! Jokes. Don't read if you dont have a sense of humourrrrr.

What does one fag say to another fag going on vacation?
Can I help you pack your shit?

What's the most common pickup line in a gay bar?
May I push your stool in? -Pete

Why'd the fag get fired from the sperm bank?
They caught him drinking on the job - Otto

Why are arab football (soccer) teams so shitty?
Everytime they get a corner they open up a shop! -Chris n Josh

What's the difference between an American girl and an arab girl? American girls get stoned before they commit adultery.

What do you call a little mexican?
A paragraph, because he's not quite an essay. -Mike

Why aren't there any spics on Star Trek?
They won't work in the future either!

Why do blacks put their garbage in clear bags?
So puerto ricans can window shop! -jesse

How do you know jews are living nextdoor?
There's wet toilet paper on the clothesline -Riley rice

What's the difference between jews and boyscouts?
Boyscouts come back from their camps! -Steve

How do you get 100 jews into a car?
Throw a quarter in it.
How do you get them out again?
Tell them Hilter is driving.

If Whites and blacks had a war, what would it be called?
KKK vs KFC! - Justin

Why do niggers always have sex on their minds?
Because they have pubes on their heads! -Bo

I like black people . . .
. . I used to have some black friends 'till my dad sold them!..