Chris follow up

Oh and me and Chris didn't get back together. He is now dating that girl.

Ted x2

I didn't realize I hadn't followed up on the Ted situation. We went out on two dates.

They were good. Except Ted doesn't talk. And not only does he not talk but when he does answer direct questions he makes a really weird facial expression and takes half an hour to answer.

So it obviously didn't go too far

Which is fine.

Bird

So looking at this on my phone always cheers me up

I feel so liberated. Free. Just enjoy how my life is going right this instant. Working hard and it seems to be paying off. Going to school, not depending on any guy for comfort or happiness. I was skipping at the subway and half dancing on the bus. I don't care what anyone thinks. I'm me. And right now I feel free.

I wrote it two months ago when I was feeling pretty happy. It's great.

Ted

I met a pretty eyed guy on the dance floor. We danced and we made each other smile. He asked for my number. This will sound sleazy but I'm only dtf atm. I just don't anything super serious right now, which is totally unlike me (I hate being single). Maybe I'll meet a guy who changes that

Messy

I'm attracted to fucked up people because I'm fucked up. I rather be in a broken relationship than single because I feel a need to be connected. This means I'm not...confident? Happy with myself? Complete? Thus unfit to date. Is that why my relationships crumble or is it because I seek out dark lost boys?

We don't work out because we are two broken people living in darkness and neither can bring the other to light.

Even scorpios can bleed, even scorpios are human.

Day nine

He wants me back because of how I make him feel. Not because of my qualities

End of 2012

So Chris and I didn't get back together. He said something along the lines of wanting to spend alone time with this particular girl and go camping with her and I said I didn't want my partner to do that. He said then we can't date. I said fine and he apologized. Then I told him to fuck off like three times and hung up on him soon after.

I miss him buy what an idiot. I can do so much better than someone who is undecided and unwilling.