poem

I will betray my god for you Turn my back on my country and kin Live in sin and worship your light Trade every drop of blood and last breath Trade the heart beating in my chest Feel the kiss of death for one longing look, or chance To live forever on your hook To be torn limb from limb To be torn to pieces and devoured A willing victim to your power

My Love, show mercy - call on me to serve you Allow me to kneel at your feet Quell the fire burning through my flesh I'm drunk in love drowning in desire Forsaking everything I've ever known Offering my body and soul Like incense to cure what ails you Hoping you'd ever find me worthy - that you'd one day think of me - As your most adoring, most neglected, willing slave

The Building

Had I not climbed so high
Without haste, freedom would have come
But the exhilaration of the jump
My feet gliding off the ground
Again made my heart beat

My hair floated beside my face
I closed my eyes and felt
The power of my freedom
The power of the wind

I had waiting for too long
For my life to restart, and now the song
Of the birds caressed me
Freedom, soon I would find a home

My love, soon we will embrace
you took the jump before and beside you
I will quickly regain my place
On clouds we had not reached

The sun has risen for me only.
From the queen, the crown I received
Sing my love  - we are free
This jump will bring me to thee

I see it, coming closer and cry
I feel ecstatic at soon being free
And that is when I was hit
That is when my skull hit the concrete

Cinquain Poem

Rain
Exciting rhythm
Falling all around
Peaceful pitter-patter sound
Beautiful

My ex

I wonder what I would do?
If I actually saw him
Glimpsed him
Not in a picture nor a dream
But flesh and bone
Saliva and clothes
would it frighten
or excite me?

My heart still mourns
the ghost of him.

First boyfriend

The truth is.... I can't stop thinking about you...

your smile,

       your look,

               your hair,

                      your scent,

                              your clothes,

                                      your sarcasm,

                                                                     I love it all.

how does it feel to know you're everything i want?

To know I stay up at night because reality is finally better than my dreams?

You were my first kiss, my first love. If only you knew how much I thought of you, it would scare you.

You are the music in me, my favourite tune, the love of my life, don't go away soon.

His ex

I see she is single, I know you two will mingle
Giving her the comfort I was unfit for
Like the other two before her and during our time
The lies, and hidden worlds that you did hide

My love is strong, everything it did overcome
never did I imagine you would end it with me
I even thought it was my fault
"You didn't see my love - I pushed you too hard"

But I didn't, all I did was love you.

Eve of my 15th birthday

Tomorrow the girl
She turns 15
Tomorrow she will be
Treated as a queen
But other days
She feels ignored
Just another common soul
Who when she cries
People turn,
Their backs face her,
Her tears she hides,
Her life is depression,
her companion is misery
she sinks to new depths
as her wrists bleed.
She fakes a smile
and then moves on
It works for a while
then it all goes wrong
She looks in the mirror
and she tries to make it right
she starts to cry
She knows it won't be alright (she knows she won't win the fight)